yesterday i said my final goodbyes to somebody who used to mean the world to me

eli was my best friend and impacted my life so much. i don’t think i took him for granted but i just feel like i wish i had done things differently and appreciated him more as a friend. he did a lot for me. when i look back on my freshman year all i’m going to remember is him and how we used to sit on the stairs during lunch and ignore the administration when they told us to leave, how he used to walk me to every single class and how he was too tall for me to hug him properly, when he brought me roses on valentines day and wore a suit and tie. everything. it’s all gone now. he’s gone. i’ll probably never see him again.

it just hit me. that last hug. that last goodbye.

i’m gonna miss him